My worst day sober, and I have had quite a few, is infinitely better then my best day drunk. Every single molecule of my being understands this, and I would never forfeit a single sober experience, or my sobriety for anything.

I know that for me I could never use normally, and I never did. My first drunk was at ten years old. I went to my parents liquor cabinet, and drank a half quart of whiskey. I would take three or four mouthfuls and walk around waiting for the sensations to take effect. Nothing happened. I didn't feel any different so I would return to the liquor cabinet for more. I wanted to know what it was like to get drunk. From that point on I never drank socially; I only drank and used drugs to feel their effects on me.

What sobriety has given me is the opportunity to fully experience life, to be fully present. I have been able to explore many wonderful things, and I look forward to new experiences. For that I am truly grateful.