On February 7th, 2007 I posted about a woman that I dance with. I was concerned that she was going down the path of using drugs again, and I asked a mutual friend to twelve step her. Saturday night I saw her, and she admitted to me that she did used drugs. I am grateful that she had the courage to tell me that she used again. She said she would be willing to go to NA meetings, but not AA. I told her I would take her to a meeting a day for thirty days in order for her to stay clean.
She called me on Sunday evening and we talked about her drug usage. I didn't realize how messed up this girl was, and how much she was using. She agreed to go to thirty meetings in thirty days, and she would start on Monday. I was willing to reschedule my life, and go to NA to help her get clean.
Monday arrives, and guess what? She IM'ed me with an excuse to avoid a meeting. I had her call me, and we talked about her excuses, and that she is playing with fire. She said she would be back in town on Thursday and would be ready to go to a meeting then.
Today I am very sad. I don't think she is ready to get clean and sober, and there is nothing I can do about it. I know it is for her to determine if she has reached her bottom, and when she is ready I will take her to meetings. It is really difficult watching someone held hostage by this disease. I will have to see what Thursday brings.
posted by Sober @ Sundown @ 10:36 PM
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Thank you my friend for dropping by.
I understand how you must have felt but believe me that's nothing much you can do. I still remembered when I was still using and this good friend of mine really wanna help me. When I'm high, I would promise him anything, telling him this gonna be my last call. Everyday was my last calls!
Not until I hit bottom do I really, really seek help!
Don't be sad, my friend. Keep her in your prayer, she'll come around.
You've done you can do. Now you must wait to see if she's ready for more.
Keeping a good thought for you and your friend.
I feel ya, Sundown. I have been at exactly this place with more than one friend of mine. It is very painful. Just so very difficult to watch.
Tomorrow is Thursday. I will send out some good thoughts while I know you are doing the same. People prayed me into the rooms. Maybe we can all do that, too.
Peace,
Scout
Remember to take care of yourself...this is painful stuff. I will pray for her at the end of my meetings this week
It sucks watching people we care about hurting themselves - I am thinking of you and that you can keep strong through this.
Okay.
Let go & Let God.
STEP BACK.
It is not good for our own sobriety to stay so close to those using.
All you can do is lay the tools at her feet. You cannot make her pick up those tools.
Yes, it is sad when you reach out to someone and they refuse the help that's offered freely. Hopefully, there will come a day when she's ready.
Message From Noor
I'm sorry, Michael. I'm in a Cyber Cafe in town right now. I can't get access to my Internet since last Friday's night. I guess my CPU was struck down by lightning. I forgot to take out the telephone line and I pay dearly for my carelessness.
I can't always go to my friends' house just to use their computer and this Cyber Cafe are using, most of them are using dial-up connection and it took ages for anything to get loaded. I didn't get the chance to visit all my Recovery Friends' blog and I hope you will spread the words around about my predicaments whenever you visit them.
I'm reaching out for your help to tell them all. You can use My Sacred Links to visit and leave a message on their blogs.
I don't know when I shall be online again. Still waiting for their technician to repair my PC. I was told it may take at least two weeks before I shall be online again.
Oo boy, how can you live without your beloved PC for two long weeks?
Please Michael, I'm counting on you. See you in two weeks time. Bye for now...
Thank you for stopping by and lending your support.
I hope she joins us soon.
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