Well, I have discovered that watermelons are best left for eating. I just couldn't get a satisfying photograph out of the little charmer.

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Last week I was suffering from my perfectionism and needed to have a perspective adjustment (a.k.a. meeting). I have had some setbacks with the house repairs, and was very discouraged. When I get discouraged I loose my motivation, and that generally leads to disaster. It is much easier to head off a disaster with a meeting then suffer all alone in my misery, and Clean up the mess I make because of it.

I contacted Georgia to see if she was up to a meeting. Surprisingly, she immediately said yes. We went to the CMA meeting that we attended before. Somehow sitting in a meeting stops my insanity from spinning out of control, and I am able to put life, and it's petty interruptions in perspective.

It took several weeks but Georgia finally arrived at the real reason to continue drinking. She doesn't want to give it up because it numbs the loneliness she is feeling. The difficult thing about watching someone struggle with this disease is that it brings you right back to your own beginning of recovery. I remember what it was like to not want to feel. I remember staying one step away from loneliness. I remember the overwhelming desire to use. No matter how much time goes by those memories are still vivid.

Fortunately, I have tools now to combat the loneliness. I know what to do when the desire to drink or use rears it's ugly head. I hope Georgia will become willing to discover these tools, and use them again.