It has been an entire year since I started this blog. I created it after I found my ex's secret blog where she wrote of all her indiscretions. In the beginning I wrote of my pain of loosing the relationship that I believed would last forever. It took a long, long time to let go of all the good things that we shared together.

But now, time has passed and my cynicism has returned. Sometimes I wonder if that is a defense mechanism, or just part of my core personality. I am leaning towards the latter. I still wonder how I managed to exist in such an abusive, emotionally draining relationship. The more I tried to fixed things, the more she dished out. I can't imagine where we would be now if we had stayed together, but I can guarantee it would not be healthy.

There are couples out there that stay together forever, and with a little effort, I thought I could be one of them. Maybe that will never happen, or maybe it is in my future. Whatever happens, I know that I have finally arrived at a level of acceptance with relationships.

I am grateful that others found this blog interesting enough to read, and offer support and comments. Thank you all for being there for me as I struggle to find my way, and rediscover who I am.