This was a good weekend. I found some peace inside, and once I recognized what I was feeling, I opened myself up to experience it fully. It is so wonderful to be completely present for such a positive feeling. Granted, the whole weekend wasn't like this, but those brief moments can add such joy to life.
Friday, my carpenter decided to take a four hour lunch. I was so pissed I could barely contain myself. I couldn't get his saw to work, so I picked up the nail gun, and started putting up the 4'x8' plywood sheathing on the garage. He showed up when I was doing this and got really nervous, and jumped in to help. He was so shocked that he actually showed up on time Saturday morning. That nail gun is a neat tool. I enjoyed using it.
Saturday, I went out dancing. I was given the opportunity to do a tenth step, and I was happy to set things right. A while back, I was very sarcastic with a woman at the dance hall. I was upset with something about my ex, and I was an asshole to her. I knew I had to make amends, but didn't see her for a long, long time. On Saturday she was there. I went up to her, and told her that I treated her badly, and that I was sorry for it. She, a normie, was shocked at first, then held out her hand for me to shake, and said she was an ass too. I don't really think she was, but that is what she recalls. It felt good to make amends, and resolve that experience.
When I was leaving one of the guys who works security stopped me, and went on and on about what a great dancer I was. He insisted that he knows because he works there, and watches everyone dance. He went on to say that I was the best dancer in the place (not really true, but I sure soaked it up). I thanked him for his kind words, and said goodnight.
Today, I went to hang out with old friends at a dog show. I haven't seen these folks for almost a year. When a friend came walking up to me I smiled and said, "Hi". She stopped, paused, and said, "You know, the older you get, the more beautiful you become". I was so flabbergasted, all I could do is stumble around for a 'thank you'. Wow! This comment came from a straight woman!
What a joy to be spoken of so well. I have allowed my ex to run my ego deep into the ground. My self esteem is pretty much non-existent these days, so I can easily be blown away with kind words. This was the grand finale to my weekend.
My friends dogs for you to enjoy.....